I honestly don’t even know where to begin with 2017. It really was an incredible year and it has been a long time since I have gotten to say that at the end of a year. I had written an entire recap of the year and then decided that I thought it was boring and that pictures are a much better way to do this without anyone falling asleep!! So here goes, start scrolling…..
Goodbye 2017…Hello 2018!!!
Wesley is currently 12 weeks old. I cannot believe how quickly time flies with a baby! He is 12 1/2lbs and 24 inches long. I cried as I packed away his newborn clothes and then his 3 month clothes, he started wearing 6th month clothes around 9.5-10 weeks. He amazes me everyday with his sweet disposition and array of facial expressions. Watching him figure out new things is just incredible to watch. Now he is intentionally moving his arms and hands to touch things or play with his toys on his tummy mat. He responds to your facial expressions and voice and of course he still loves ceiling fans. He looks like he is deep in thought a lot of times but he just has the sweetest personality and we are so lucky that he really has been an easy baby so far. I have been so fortunate to be out on maternity leave since he was born but I am so sad to see it quickly coming to an end. I just can’t stand thinking about not spending the day with him talking and playing and singing stupid songs. We sing this poor boy A LOT of silly songs. My favorite is when I am pumping his legs to get him to get gas out and sing “Wesley William is so cute! Wesley William loves to toot!” Will sings him songs during diaper changes to keep him smiling and entertained as well.
I apologize for any typos as I am typing one handed with my left while he sleeps in my right arm with his little milk belly sticking out of his jammies. I am soaking up every snuggle I can get since my baby is growing so quickly and my time home with him is rapidly disappearing.
Last weekend we had Wesley baptized at Belin Methodist in Murrells Inlet where Will and I got married. We made the decision that before church service we would scatter the triplets ashes over the inlet at the cross by the water.
I did not take this picture. I obviously wasn’t thinking about taking a picture that morning so I had to borrow this one from online but you can see what I am talking about
It’s been almost two years since we lost the trips and I couldn’t think of a better place to spread their ashes or another time when we would have this many family members there. It was absolutely beautiful outside minus it being cold. Reverend Alexander who married Will and I said a few words and then we scattered their ashes as everyone sang Jesus loves me. It was beautiful and exactly how it should have been. There were a lot of tears shed by everyone and they just kept on coming as the day went on.
Wesley was so good during church service. He didn’t mind the water or being walked around by Reverend Alexander. I was scared to death he was going to have a blow out in his outfit before getting baptized or be ready for a nap and start screaming. He did poop in the middle of service while wearing his outfit but luckily our Target brand diapers did their job and we didn’t ruin our outfit.
I cannot tell you the number of people, especially men, who came up to me after church and told me that we made them cry. When we got up for the baptism, Reverend Alexander told the congregation that in the Spring of 2016 I was carrying triplets and we lost all three of them. Luckily we were facing him and not the congregation so that everyone didn’t see me ugly cry but they could tell that I was crying. There was a bit of a gasp from everyone when he said it and when we turned around I could see a lot of teary eyes. I also ugly cried when everyone was singing Jesus loves you to Wesley as they walked around. It was just such a happy day on top of thinking about this is what it would have been like for the trips.
Wesley had three of his five great grandparents there, all four grandparents, an aunt, uncle, and cousin and a lot of friends who are like family. It really was a great day. I know some people may think it is strange that we had our son baptized on the same day we scattered our triplets ashes but it was a way to honor them all. We would have had our triplets baptized at Belin by Reverend Alexander too so doing it all on the same day just seemed right to us. We had them baptized in the hospital but this is how it should have been.
I am extremely grateful that we were able to have Wesley, and we cannot thank the amazing team at Fertility Center of the Carolina’s enough for helping us make our dream of having a family a reality. I am also very grateful for the time I have gotten to take off work and the family and friends we have had supporting us throughout this journey. I feel kind of selfish saying it but I truly hope that we are able to expand our family again soon. We love being parents so much we want to do it again! Will and I both grew up with 2 siblings and I can’t imagine what life would be like as an only child. Yes I know there are things I would have enjoyed like not having to share or not getting picked on by my brothers but who else are you going to talk about how crazy your family is with or have memories with. There were parts of being pregnant that were not fun like having terrible carpel tunnel or not being able to sleep on my back, but I would do it again in a heart beat if I had the chance because I know how amazing the end result is. Even going through labor really wasn’t that bad, and my epidural didn’t fully work.
I am jealous of people who can just get pregnant easily and go through their pregnancy with not a care in the world. I hope they appreciate the gift of fertility that they were given and not take it for granted. After having gone through an entire pregnancy and having Wesley as the end result, it only makes me want that experience again more because of how amazing it is and now I know what I was missing out on before. Sorry honey, I totally have baby fever and we just had a baby 12 weeks ago!! Don’t worry I am enjoying my little man plenty and I am not wishing my time with him away I only want to add to our joy, happiness and family.
To end on a happy note here are Wesley’s Weekly pics 1-12. I cannot believe how much he has grown! Please excuse picture #1, we had not received our blanket yet for pictures. And I just realized that now there are no more numbers for weekly pics after 12 so I am going to have to get creative!